Music

Hei.

I know I've said it countless times, but music is really like breathing for me. I can't study without it, I can't sleep without it, I can't do anything. When I feel down, music is there for me, when I feel happy, it's there again. No matter what my feelings are, it's always been there for me. A friend, even if he/she cares about you, he/she can't always be there. They've got their own lives to live and sometimes, when you're mad, they may be doing something else and you may find yourself in the position of ... having to find refuge in someone else... or something else. I, for one, find refuge in music. These are the songs that I've been listening this past week:

I have only one term paper left and then - a couple of tests I think. After all of that, I will be able to start learning how to enjoy life again, hah. I can't wait for it. I also want to start teaching my mum english again [ I am inspired by Bii on this one ]. Here comes a summer full of projects.

Night,

Allexa.

Skins UK

Hi there.

At the begining of this week I finished watching the fourth season of the tv series Skins UK. Even though there are yet two more seasons, I can't watch them. If you don't know what the show is about, let me tell you on short. Every two seasons have as the center of action a college generation. It's all about their lives, how they overcome their problems, how they learn to love or what drugs can do to you [ farmaceuticals as well as things life spliff ].

The first generation is a little bit strange, to say so. At least that's how I see them. I don't really like the way they live or the fact that they are stoned most of the time, but I got addicted to the episodes. I just had to know what was going to happen to them next.

The second generation was.... utterly amazing. What I loved most about all of it is that they show all of us how hard you can fall in love with someone, that it doesn't matter what gender the person is, that you can get really hurt, that you can be really scared of how strong your feelings are. I am not going to say more, because I really wish all of you to watch it. It made me cry so many times.

Spoilers or not, here are some gifs/photos with the second generation [ mostly Effy and Freddie,may I add ]:

 

Okay, this is an overdose of Skins, but these are just amazing, I'm telling you. So I'm not sorry for sharing.

 

Maybe it's a bit much, but bear with me for a little more. Ayayaya.

Their love left me speachless after the last episode. You should definetely watch.

And now I am off to bed, even though today I've already slept like... 4-5 hours or so. I'm a sleep addict.

Night,

Allexa.

Braids

Hello.

I absolutely love, but love braids. I want my hair to be long again, I want to be anble to braid it without a few hairs to pop out, you know. So, for when I have it back at it's original height, I will enjoy these photos:

Haha, this morning I did two braids. I was very proud of myself, may I say!

Allexa.

Tumbling.

So basically...

Yeah, nope, I'm not doing that. But still, as I always do, I was tumbling and even if today I found as many inspirational pictures as I did yestarday, I feel the need to share them. They made my day better and maybe they'll also make yours.

Um, I guess that's it. For the past 3 years or so I've been constantly trying to be myself, no matter what everybody else does or says. If I am myself, I won't feel bad about a decision or about something that I've done, because I'll know that it was ME all along. I'd get mad at me for following someone else? Yeap. So be you. Because at the end of the day, that's  what you're left with.

Allexa.

Delena.

Hello.

How are you? I am fine, thank you very much. School isn't going so bad these days, even though a lot of tests and term papers are coming up. Through all of this mess I made time for myself. And by that, of course I mean to watch tv series. Two weeks ago, while still being on that school trip, I watched the 19th episode of the third season of The Vampire Diaries. I know I wasn't supposed to watch new episodes while being with my classmates, but it was late and I just allowed myself a moment of peace, haha.

After a long enough wait, Damon and Elena kissed. Uhum. Finally. I think they are perfect together, heh. I know some people won't agree with me and will say that Stefan is her 'great,fairytalish' love, but um, nope, I don't think that. I am not one who can settle for good when I can have best. Yes, Stefan is only good. He'll always be just good. He ditched Elena when she needed him. He acted dumb, he abandoned her, he wasn't there to save her. He hid his monster-self from her, he left her when he should have been fighting for her.

On the other hand, Damon has always been there for her, you know. Even if she didn't really stand him, she didn't tell him to go away. She needed him and he was there every single step of the way, getting mad and over-protective, saving her, laughing with her, changing in better and changing her along the way, making her stronger. I personally support their relationship. I think it makes both of them better. It's intense, there's passion and both Damon and Elena can be happy, because they are true to who they are. Elena knows the real Damon and vice-versa. There's no lies. They didn't fall in love with someone other than the true self of the other.

In that episode, when Elena kissed Damon, she just gave in her emotions. She didn't ignore them anymore. That background song, Never let me go by Florence and The Machine described everything perfectly.

When Elena chooses between the brothers, she will kind of put a motive of sadness between Damon and Stefan, but it's best that she does that. She can't fool around with the two of them. And I think it's immature of them to say that the one that isn't chosen will have to leave town. They're going to hurt her. They should just accept the decision and move on. Grr. Oh, here's the song:

I hope you like it. I've listened to it constantly ever since I've heard it on the show. The lyrics have so much meaning that you can't help but get emotional while listening to it, haha.

Oh and this quote: "Nothing worthwhile is ever easy" fits Delena so much. Stelena came way to easy. What comes easy goes easy, folks.

Night,

Allexa.

Inspired.

Hei there.

Today was not such a good day for all of us. Although it involved some crying, it made me realise the kind of person that I want to be. I don't want to look for any excuses. I just want to do it. I am determined, haha.

After doing some of my homework, I felt the need to photoshop. I 'garbbed' some photos, looked for some inspiring quotes and this is what came out of it:

xo,
Allexa.

Class trip.

Hello there.

How are you? I for one don't know. I have very mixed up feelings. I am confused, sad, happy, mad at myself for screwing up on that test, for ... having a bad influence on B, since in the first term her grades were up and now she is.. struggling, I could say. I need to study more too. I want to study more, and I am going to start that tomorrow, even though I've already done some improvements this evening. I don't want to dissapoint my parents.

The class trip was strange. It was amazing, harmful to our hearts, but fun in every single way. I was able to be myself all along the way and I laughed, even though I felt really bad about certain events. Why can't like be less complicated? Oh boys, please like the right girls in the future, okay?

Here are some photos:

Some of them are PhotoShopped, some of them are not. At the end of the day, everything was pretty amazing and I loved the landscapes!

Night night,
Allexa.

I feel shitty.

Hei you.

These days haven't been the best for me, I have to say. But I'll get over it, like I always do. What has been helping me a lot is music. I can just listen to a song and feel better. Although some make me even sadder, I continue to listen to them. Here are some examples:

Uhum... I am just not really okay. I don't think I will too soon.

Allexa.

Aaaargh.

Hello.

Haha, so I am now basically just ditching packing for the school trip tomorrow. I want to write. Just that. Write and listen to music, but I also can't wait for tomorrow morning to arrive. I can't wait to see everybody and have fun. I am in the mood for fun, I'm feeling funny, bhuhaha.

ayayayay.


Allexa.

PS: If you are wondering why I am so strange, bhoo. Today, like a few hours ago, I saw Liam's twitcam. Like the craziest one, haha. Laughed so hard! Niall called in a visit, so we had a bit of Niam. Also, we got to hear a Vas Happenin greet and some 'I love you Liam! I love you forever!' from Zayn and a quick appearance form Louis. Apparently, Harry was naked, so he couldn't come on camera. But it was fun, yayayayayay.

Drawing.

Hei you.

This spring holiday I was full of inspiration. I've been drwaing ever since they told us school was over and I have a bunch of drawings that I can't wait to share, haha !

I scanned one of them all and I coloured it in PhotoShop [ as it is apparently miraculously working for a reason that I am not to question, but to be ALL happy and smiling and hard-working, haha ]. Here it is!

See you tomorrow, when I say my goodbye for a few days!!


bhoo,
Allexa.

Summer.

Hei there, you.

I know it's early to talk about this, but I am in the mood for summer. It's that time of the year, that mooment when I feel like the warmth of spring isn't enough, when I feel like I need to bath in the heat of summer. Arrrrgh, I want the sun to shine brightly in the sky, I want the wind to blow gently, I want the temperatures to be up high, I don't want school anymore, but I do want to end this year with a good grade. SO BHOO YOU, LIFE.

I know we can't have everything we want at once, at the same time, but please, just this time? For me? pretty please, haha.

Oh, and I want to fall in love. I am currently liking none and it is very strange. It sucks not to have something to worry about, such as 'Does he like me?' or ' Let's make him fall in love with me!! ' or ' Let's play a game. I'll tell you how it ends, though. I'll break your heart. '

Please, tell me you know what I mean.

xoxo,

Allexa.