Kiss me...

Hei guys.

Even though ever since school started I haven't had too much time for miyself, for having fun or for sleeping, I've been able to listen to music all the time. As a result, and with Bii's help, I've found a lot of songs named "Kiss me". Here they are:

"Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight

Lead me out on the moonlit floor

Lift your open hand

Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance

Silver moon's sparkling

So kiss me"

"Kiss me like you wanna be loved
You wanna be loved
You wanna be loved
This feels like falling in love 
Falling in love
We're falling in love"

"Well, I'm not sure what this is gonna be,
But with my eyes closed all I see
Is the skyline, through the window,
The moon above you and the streets below.
Hold my breath as you're moving in,
Taste your lips and feel your skin.
When the time comes, baby don't run, just kiss me slowly."

Yap, by lots I mean three, but these are awesome songs! You should really listen to them. Here's yet another one, whose title isn't kiss me, but whose lyrics do.

"But if I kissed you
Will your mouth read this truth?
Darling, how I miss you.
Strawberries taste how lips do."

Now, I'm off to sleep. Tomorrow, it's Friday. Can't waaait.

Allexa.

Lookbook. One tree hill.

Hei.

I haven't been on lookbook.nu for quite a while now and I can say that I missed it lots. Yesterday was the first autumnish day and I felt like scooping for looks that fitted the cold weather and my cozy mood. Here's what I found:

There weren't more recent ones so I had to do with these, but they'e pretty awesome, you know!

For a few days now I've been watching One Tree Hill and I've already got to season 2, episode 15. I can say that I absolutely don't like some characters, but love others. It's just the messed up story of a few teenagers, but I like the way it's told. You should definitely watch! Here's the intro song:

Other than that, I can't wait to go out and wear warm clothes. School starts tomorrow and, even though I've been saying that I can't wait for it to start, I fear it because of all sorts of things and I want to put it off as much as I can, but that's not possible. So I just have to put the badges that are going to arrive on Tuesday on my backpack, enjoy my pencase, designed just yesterday aaand learn as much as I can. I'm going to have to look past everything else, otherwise I won't be able to take it. You may not know what I'm talking about, but you know that at school we see everyone, not only the people we want to. Maybe that'll help you figure it out ! xD

I'll go to sleep tonight and hope for the best. May this be a good school year!!

See you, 

Allexa.

D'amour ou d'amitié

Hei there.

Today I felt like listening to some old good music, even in french. I love Celine Dion, so I listened to some of her french songs. I'll show you the others as my mood suits them. For now, D'amour ou d'amitié suits it perfectly. Can "amour" turn into"amitié"? I really hope so. I need it right now, 'cause I still care. I hate drama. I'd really like a full course of boredom. Boredom today, tomorrow and the day after that. Also, school. So I can see people everyday without asking to, without meaning to, but wanting to.

"Je crois pourtant qu'il est seul et qu'il voit d'autres filles
Je ne sais pas ce qu'elles veulent ni les phrases qu'il dit
Je ne sais pas ou je suis quelque part dans sa vie
Si je compte aujourd'hui plus qu'une autre pour lui"

...translated as...

"I believe however that he's alone and that he hangs out with other girls 
I don't know what they want nor the sentences he says 
I don't know where I am somewhere in his life 
If I count more than the others for him today"

Off to bed. Night,

Allexa.

Seaside part 2.

Hi there.

During the awesome week that I spent away from home, I didn't have fun only at the pool or at the restaurant. The beach was a big part of our daily routine. One day, the first day on the "better" beach, we had really big waves and a red flag, which means you are not allowed to go into the water. But we went anyway and it was... great.

In this photo, I'm the one that seems to be flying, haha. You can only see less than half of my body.

Here, we are right after the big wave. Not too damaged. Yet.

Here is beautiful me, after being hit by a wave right in the back, made to do a kind of a roll in the water aaand I got sand in my hair and my swimming suit and a big red bruise on my hip. Priceless.

I stayed out of the water for a bit, picked up some shells and tried to write RFG on the beach, but the waved just didn't let me. So, before another wave could come and destroy my work, I simply wrote RFG in the sand and took pictures of it.

Then, a friend of my parents', a teacher, who loves taking photos, dragged me into a photo shoot.

 My leg freaks me out in this one.

The ever-lasting jumping photos. I tried my best, but I didn't have any luck. Only once did she catch me in the air, but my head was cut. Hahaha. You can laugh all you want.
I had fun. :/

Night,
Allexa.

Seaside. part 1

Hei there.

As you know, at the end of July, I went to Bulgaia with my family and two other families [ friends of mum and dad's, ever since they were at Uni ]. Even though there were no other kids besides me and brother, we spent our time having fun mostly, 'cause you know... brothers fight and they fight quite often.

Here's the beach where almost everybody went. It wasn't that great. We only went there one afternoon, on the day we arrived in the resort. The following days we spent our time on another beach, in the resort near ours. Just behind those yellow umbrella's, there was the area where you could pay for an umbrella. Look:

On the hill near the beach, there was a big sign, just like the one with Hollywood, but with Balcik, the name of the resort.

A kind of statue just near the parking lot.

This is the pool of the hotel. We spent all our afternoons there. If not there, sleeping in our rooms. The evening were spent either there or walking near the sea:

In this photo, you can also see my brother [ the one smiling like an idiot ] and a little dog, which actually followed us from the hotel all the way to the beach. There, by some means, we succeeded to get rid of it.

 

I'll come back with more photos. Right now, I'm off to read "Ion"/ 'John'.

Night,
Allexa.

P.S.:I have now changed the width of the entire blog and made the images larger. Thanks for the idea, B.

The Vampire Diaries inspiration

Hello you.


Today wasn't a very special day, but it was not regular either. I've learned that my cousin, Tina, has passed her final exams with a grade of 9.65 which is actually really good! I've also reached page 200 and something on that book I was reading. Annnd my english lessons are going well, I guess. Today my parents and I sort of talked about going to the seaside. Me is extremely happy, aya.

As  I was looking through the Delena tag, I stumbled again this Delena fan vid:

This video is simply genius and I can't get tired of it. I can't wait for season 4, asdfghjkl.

It is really hot and it's already 1 a.m. Still, I am going to try to sleep. Tomorrow I have to wake up early, urgh. I'll even get a haircut. Maybe I'll share some photos, haha.

Night,
Allexa.

Change. Happiness.

Hei.

I don't really know what to say, to be honest. I feel... shitty, as usual, but this time I want to focus on why it is so important for me to see past all the fuck-ups and try to be happy.

Yesterday I hung out with a friend of mine [ we used to be together, to be more specific ] and as I was about to go, I asked him if he was okay. He avoided answering my question, asking me back if I thought that there was something wrong with him. That moment I got a little angry and I replied that I only wanted to know if he was fine, if he was ... happy. He said he was, but the second after he said that, he added: ''Nobody is happy.'' and I was close to tears. I told him it was true, but at least I was trying to be happy and he said I actually wasn't. [ as a side comment to why I was there with him, once again ] It was true. I said that to him. But I also said that I was trying to look past all the sad stuff, because if you don't try, then what's the point of it all? Or everything. What is it? We'd just be sad all the time. I don't want that for me. 

To that, he said it's better to show it, to be true to yourself and to the world and just show it. That way, you'll know who are your friends. I agreed with that. I just agreed, but I didn't utter a word more. I know now that no matter what happened between us, we're still friends and we will always be. He's the only one that when I call and I say I need him, he's there. No questions. He just comes. And I love that. People describe him as disfunctional, but I am disfunctional too. We're kind of perfect for eachother.

[he always says I am crazy, but he stands by my side anyway]

But what does this have to do with the term of change? It is a cliche, but it is one because it is true. Second by second, minute by minute, day by day, nothing seems to change. Not a thing. We just keep going, hoping for the best, expecting the worst, trying to find ourselves or just losing who we are. And when we stop and look back at how it all used to be, we realise everything's changed.

Me? I can't stand it. When I look back, I cry, because I miss how easy it all used to be, but also because I don't miss it at all and I am amazingly happy that I am past it. I really don't know. I like to believe that life is about trying to be happy, about being happy and I want to smile. I want to find reasons to smile and if I am not smart enough to find them, I want to get angry, angry at life and stand up with my head held high.

The only constant thing in my life has been change and it still is. But what if not all change is good? What if some things have to stay the same? Like... the small things? Those I like the best. The small things. A smile, a look, a touch, a laugh, a glance, a fight, a punch. Those things make it all seem real, not boring, but full of life.

I keep bouncing between change and happiness, but those two themes are in my head right now and I can't shake them off. For me, they are forever holding hands, because I get bored easily. It's like... Starting a fire and letting it burn byt itself. At some point, it's going to stop burning if you don't keep adding wood or things to help it burn. Change. That's it. Everything changes, but the change makes it bearable. By changing things, I get happy. Even for a second, a minute, an hour. I can't be happy more than that, but for those moments I live. You can blame all you want, you can disagree with me, but I frankly don't think I care. :/

Don't you get bored if you don't experience change?

But then again, you look at a photograph and you start to appreciate the fact that some human being invented it, because it never changes, even when the people in it do.

I love change. I have change.It depends on what it affects.

Please tell me you also get bored easily, please tell that you need to add wood to the fire every once in a while to keep it burning, tell me you love its flame. Tell me I'm not the only one.

Allexa.