The last couple of weeks have been hard for me, from different reasons. One is school, as I have been either afraid to start studying for something or afarid to screw it all up, afraid of not being good enough. The second reason is the fact that I either stare too much or run. I have to start being okay with it. I have to start living in the present. And I have started to feel better, but I am afraid.
This fear is like the fear of heights... or the fear of being alone, the fear of what's out there, because in reality, us humans are so tiny. All kinds of fear.
And this is how i feel when I am scared, like crashing something.
Also, two episodes of The Vampire Diaries have already aired and the Delena moments are flawless, as is the soundtrack. This plays while Elena drink blood from Damon:
This last weekend, while being at my grandparents' all I've been listening to has been In my veins by Andrew Belle, a song from the Pretty Little lIars and The Vampire Diaries soundtrack.
"Oh, you’re in my veins, and I cannot get you out Oh, you’re all I taste, at night inside of my mouth Oh, you run away, cause I am not what you found Oh, you’re in my veins, and I cannot get you out
Everything will change Nothing stays the same Nobody is perfect Oh, but everyone is to blame"
Also, ever since I got home yesterday, I've been listening This is my city, a song played during one of Cassie's episodes in Skins UK.
"Turning my memories Hoping to find out where all the loyalty's gone The friends that I had then Turned into strangers"
Today wasn't a very special day, but it was not regular either. I've learned that my cousin, Tina, has passed her final exams with a grade of 9.65 which is actually really good! I've also reached page 200 and something on that book I was reading. Annnd my english lessons are going well, I guess. Today my parents and I sort of talked about going to the seaside. Me is extremely happy, aya.
As I was looking through the Delena tag, I stumbled again this Delena fan vid:
This video is simply genius and I can't get tired of it. I can't wait for season 4, asdfghjkl.
It is really hot and it's already 1 a.m. Still, I am going to try to sleep. Tomorrow I have to wake up early, urgh. I'll even get a haircut. Maybe I'll share some photos, haha.
How are you? I am fine, thank you very much. School isn't going so bad these days, even though a lot of tests and term papers are coming up. Through all of this mess I made time for myself. And by that, of course I mean to watch tv series. Two weeks ago, while still being on that school trip, I watched the 19th episode of the third season of The Vampire Diaries. I know I wasn't supposed to watch new episodes while being with my classmates, but it was late and I just allowed myself a moment of peace, haha.
After a long enough wait, Damon and Elena kissed. Uhum. Finally. I think they are perfect together, heh. I know some people won't agree with me and will say that Stefan is her 'great,fairytalish' love, but um, nope, I don't think that. I am not one who can settle for good when I can have best. Yes, Stefan is only good. He'll always be just good. He ditched Elena when she needed him. He acted dumb, he abandoned her, he wasn't there to save her. He hid his monster-self from her, he left her when he should have been fighting for her.
On the other hand, Damon has always been there for her, you know. Even if she didn't really stand him, she didn't tell him to go away. She needed him and he was there every single step of the way, getting mad and over-protective, saving her, laughing with her, changing in better and changing her along the way, making her stronger. I personally support their relationship. I think it makes both of them better. It's intense, there's passion and both Damon and Elena can be happy, because they are true to who they are. Elena knows the real Damon and vice-versa. There's no lies. They didn't fall in love with someone other than the true self of the other.
In that episode, when Elena kissed Damon, she just gave in her emotions. She didn't ignore them anymore. That background song, Never let me go by Florence and The Machine described everything perfectly.
When Elena chooses between the brothers, she will kind of put a motive of sadness between Damon and Stefan, but it's best that she does that. She can't fool around with the two of them. And I think it's immature of them to say that the one that isn't chosen will have to leave town. They're going to hurt her. They should just accept the decision and move on. Grr. Oh, here's the song:
I hope you like it. I've listened to it constantly ever since I've heard it on the show. The lyrics have so much meaning that you can't help but get emotional while listening to it, haha.
Oh and this quote: "Nothing worthwhile is ever easy" fits Delena so much. Stelena came way to easy. What comes easy goes easy, folks.
