The butterfly effect.

Hey there.

This has been a busy week and I can't wait to sleep and sleep and sleep. As I had to learn a lot, I thought about how little things can change our lives forever. Something somebody says, something you see, a smile, a frown, your decision regarding a small thing. All sorts of things. 

This developed in my thinking about The Butterfly Effect [ the first movie, 2004, with Ashton Kutcher ], a beautiful movie about a young man who blocks out harmful memories of significant events of his life. As he grows up, he finds a way to remember these lost memories and a supernatural way to alter his life. The ending is very unexpected, but I really like it. You come to understand the selflessness of the character so well and it sad, but amazing.

Apart from the movie, the butterfly effect is also a theory. In chaos theory, the butterfly effect is the sensitive dependence on initial conditions, where a small change at one place in a deterministic nonlinear system can result in large differences to a later state.The butterfly effect is a common trope in fiction when presenting scenarios involving time travel and with hypotheses where one storyline diverges at the moment of a seemingly minor event resulting in two significantly different outcomes.

How can you not going to a movie, crossing the street just a few seconds faster, leaving from home 5 minutes later, hearing the alarm clock, doing something or not change your life completely? It actually does and that is the most frightening thing. To know that everything you do matters. Not for the greater purpose, but for the people whose path you meet. It makes you feel so small, yet so big. And it scares me to death. 

Sometimes I'd like to go back in time and change something that I've done, but other times, I think of where I am right now, I am happy with it and I realise that I wouldn't be here without those choices.

I am going to sleep now, as this the part of the day that I've been looking forward to the most. 

Night,

Allexa.